Happy New Year?

SELAMAT TAHUN BARU!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

새해 복 많이 받으세요!!!!!

Okay I know I already late for say that. Sekarang udah tanggal 3 Januari 2012 tapi gue gak ada ngerasa berbeda sedikitpun. Gue ngucapin telat (selain baru buka blog lagi) juga karena gue gak ngerasa ada yang beda kecuali kalender di kamar gue. Justru gue malah ngegalau parah waktu malem tahun baru -____-. Gue malem tahun baru cuma berdua bokap di rumah, dan bokap pun tidur jam setengah 9 malem. Nyokap ama adek bakar-bakaran di rumah saudara. Gue males ikut karena gue emang kurang deket ama sodara-sodara gitu. Gue ngabisin malem tahun baru cuma nonton tv, twitteran, dan kelaperan. Di twitter banyak yang ngetwit tentang memori di jaman 2011. Gue pun ikut ngetwit. Entah mengapa, setiap gue inget-inget tentang 2011, gue lebih sering inget kejadian-kejadian buruk di 2011. Dari mulai 16th birthday gue yang amat membosankan sampai masalah rumit yang gue alamin. Padahal kayaknya lebih banyak kejadian asiknya dibanding buruknya. Di 2011 gue berhasil nonton 2PM (Boyband korea yang gue suka juga saat itu) dengan cara gratisan tapi berhasil nonton paling depan. 2011 itu macem-macem kejadiannya, tapi kerasa cepet banget jadi kejadian-kajadiannya banyak yang gua lupa, kecuali yang pahit-pahitnya. Faktanya, semua pahit-pahit itu masih kebawa ampe 2012. Kebanyakan orang ngomong "new year, new me", gue rasanya juga pengen ngomong gitu, tapi paling hasilnya cuma bullshit! Semua pahit di 2012 kebawa terus ampe sekarang. Yes, I already moved on, tapi pasti masih ada bekasnya. Jadi rasanya gak ada bedanya, mungkin bagi gue 1 Januari tuh sebenrnya 32 Desember 2011. Tapi pasti gue juga punya harapan di tahun 2012 ini. Gue harap semua harapan gue bisa kecapai, amin.


But once again, happy new year.

Holiday!

DAMN!

This is what I've been waiting for! Holiday. LIBURAAAAN!!! But? This is sucks!!! I have nothing to do! No friends! And that so important for me is.... NO MONEY!!! ;;________________;;

Honestly, I have some money that quite enough for this holiday. But.... udah abis sebelum liburan mulai. WTH! =____= 

NAEGA MICHYEOGAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!! NAN EOJJEORAGO?????

Oke, mungkin yang baca ini tuh capek ngeliat 3 bahasa nyampur gitu aja... Padahal bahasa Inggris & Korea gue pas-pasan abis (yang bahasa Korea juga ngambil dari lirik lagu -_-).

Back to da topic,

gue sebenernya megang atm yang bisa gua pake buat ngambil duit kapan aja dan gak dimana aja. Gue cuma bisa ngambil di atm dan itu tersedia 24jam. Tapi tiap bulan nyokap gue kan nyetak buku tabungan gue. Ketauanlah kalo gua ngambilin duit tuh kapan aja. Kalo udah lebih dari batas wajar, bisa di bakar gue! (Gue nya doang, kartunya diselametin) But this is for sure, holiday without money is kinda HELL!!! Libur sebenernya 2 minggu, seperti biasanya, tapi udah mulai gak ada pelajaran dari 2 minggu sebelum libur, dan gue memutuskan buat gak masuk. Jadi total libur sekitar 4 minggu..... sekitar 1 bulan..... tanpa uang......

Sebenernya emang konyol daritadi gue ngomongin uang. Kayaknya tuh gue orang yang gak bisa bertahan hidup tanpa kekayaan (aish gak gitu juga sih). Tapi serius deh, gue bakal kekurung di rumah selama 4 bulan tanpa ngapa-ngapain! Gak bisa pergi main, jalan-jalan, bahkan beli  jajanan di warung sebelah aja gak bisa! Gue aja sampe make duit pulsa (gue usaha dagang pulsa di kelas -_-v) hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.......

Yaa... selama liburan ini, pacar gue yang setia tuh cuma laptop ini (kalo gak lagi selingkuh ama adek gue) sama seperangkat sketch book, pensil, dan pengapus buat gambar. Rasanya gak ada kegiatan lain. Gue pengen baca novel buat liburan, tapi semua novel gue udah selesai dibaca -_- pengen beli baru, yaaa... masalahnya kembali ke masalah awal. No money. Hell yeah! =_______=

Tapi kemarin seharian gue dapet kegiatan baru, yaitu gambar (bukan baru sih) tapi di papan tulis di kamar gue. Yep di kamar gue ada papan tulis ukuran 3x4,5 jengkal tangan gue. Gue ngegambar ini kurang lebih 1,5 jam. Lumayan lah~~~

This is what I've made :3

Oke, rasanya cukup dulu gue ngetik ngetik gak jelas daritadi. Nyokap juga udah teriak-teriak nyuruh gue mandi. Kekekekeke..... 

NB: Kalo ada yang mau ngirim uang sms gue ya. Gak tau nomer gue? NDESO!

Ugly...

Ugly... Is that word memorizing you for something? I knew, that word sounds so negative. And it sounds little bit harsh too, I think. But there's a song that told me, that word is describing.... me. Okay this is weird! That song is from 2NE1 (Korean Girlgroup). You should read the lyrics...


UGLY - 2NE1


Hangul

밝게 웃어보지만
내 맘에 들지 않아
난 예쁘지 않아 아름답지 않아
Oh oh oh oh x2

노랠 불러보지만
아무도 듣지 않아
난 예쁘지 않아 아름답지 않아
Oh oh oh oh x2

난 왜 이렇게 못난 걸까
어떡하면 나도 너처럼 환하게 웃어볼 수 있을까
또 화가나 왜 늘 완벽하지 못해
이 깨진 거울 속 못난 모습을 향해 탓하기만 해

쳐다보지마 지금 이 느낌이 싫어 난
어디론가 숨고만 싶어 벗어 나고 싶어
이 세상은 거짓말

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

날 쉽게 이해한다고 하지마
못 생기고 삐뚤어진 내 마음이 널 원망할지도 몰라
말 시키지마 난 너와 어울리지 못해
그 잘난 눈빛 속 차가운 가식이 날 숨막히게 해

다가오지마 너의 관심조차 싫어 난
어디론가 떠나고 싶어 소리 치고 싶어
이 세상은 거짓말

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

All alone
I’m all alone X2
따뜻함이란 없어
곁엔 아무도 없어

All alone I’m all alone X2
I’m always all alone

따뜻함이란 없어
곁엔 그 누구도 날 안아줄 사람 없어

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Romanization

Barkge useobojiman
Nae mame deulji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

Norael bulleobojiman
Amudo deutji anha
Nan yeppeuji anha areumdapji anha
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

Nan wae ireoke motnan geolkka
Eotteokhamyeon nado neocheoreom hwanhage useobol su isseulkka
Tto hwagana wae neul wanbyeokhaji motae
I kkaejin geoul sok motnan moseubeul hyanghae tatagiman hae

Chyeodabojima jigeum i neukkimi sirheo nan
Eodironga sumgoman sipeo beoseo nago sipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Nal swipge ihaehandago hajima
Mot saenggigo ppittureojin nae maeumi neol wonmanghaljido molla
Mal sikijima nan neowa eoulliji motae
Geu jallan nunbit sok chagaun gasigi nal summakhige hae

Dagaojima neoui gwansimjocha sirheo nan
Eodironga tteonago sipeo sori chigo sipeo
I sesangeun geojitmal

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

All alone
I’m all alone X2
Ttatteutamiran eobseo
Gyeoten amudo eobseo

All alone I’m all alone X2
I’m always all alone

Ttatteutamiran eobseo
Gyeoten geu nugudo nal anajul saram eobseo

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly
And nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

I know, you don't understand right? Hehehehe -_____-

This is the English translation:

I put a big smile on, but I don’t like how I look
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

I sing a song but no one listens to me
I’m not pretty, I’m not beautiful
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

Why am I this unattractive?
How can I smile beautifully like you?
I get mad again, why am I never perfect?
I complain again looking at my ugly-self through the broken mirror

Don’t look at me, I don’t like this feeling
I want to hide somewhere, I want to get out
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her, I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

Don’t tell me that easily that you understand how I feel
I might resent you with my ugly and crooked heart
Don’t talk to me, I can’t get along with you
Your cold fakeness behind your arrogant eyes suffocate me

Don’t come near me, I hate your attention
I wanna leave for somewhere and shout
This world is full of lies

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her, I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

All alone, I’m all alone, I’m all alone
There’s not warmth, no one is next to me
All alone, I’m all alone
All alone, I’m all alone
I’m always all alone
There’s no warmth, there’s no one to give me a hug

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her, I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly and nobody wants to love me
Just like her I wanna be pretty
I wanna be pretty
Don’t lie to my face cause I know I’m ugly

If you think the lyrics are cool, you should listen it! The song and their voice are more cooler ^---^.

But I still don't understand, WHY THEY THINK THEY'RE UGLY???? X____X

                                         2NE1. This is what they called UGLY? Oh girls...

Badmood?

Gue benci banget sama yang namanya BADMOOD! Itu adalah perasaan yang sangat amat gue benci! Yang bisa ngancurin semua kesenangan gue dalam sekejap! Tapi sampai sekarang gue gak tau apa penyebabnya. Oke gue bohong. Gue selalu tau alesan kenapa gue badmood, tapi tiap orang nanya ke gua "kenapa?" gak akan gue jawab. Soalnya rata-rata mood gue ancur karena hal yang sangat amat sepele! Kalo gue ngomong ama temen-temen gue atau whoever yang nanya, haiisssh pasti bakal dibilang gue itu sangat amat kekanak-kanakan (oke itu emang bener, gue cuma gak mau terkenal dengan sifat jelek gue satu ini! Namanya juga remaja =_=). Dan hasilnya, gue berujung kesel pada diri gue sendiri. "Kesel banget gue ama diri gue! Ngapain juga gue kesel cuma gara-gara itu?", pasti itu yang gue pikirin. Tapi faktanya, meskipun gue udah mikir gitu, tetep aja rasa kesel gue yang amat sangat sepele itu gak bisa ilang. Bahkan mungkin makin memuncak entah kenapa. Badmood bisa dateng kapan aja buat gue, walaupun sedetik sebelumnya gue ngakak abis-abisan.

Gue selalu ngerasa kesalahan terbesar gue ama temen gue tuh kalo gue lagi badmood itu. Kenapa? Karena temen gue yang rasanya gak salah apa-apa selalu kena marah ama gue. Bisa gue teriakkin abis-abisan. Gue yang orangnya agak konyol, bisa berubah jadi macan ngamuk kalo badmood. Dan saat yang bikin gue yang naik darah itu kalo orang yang mencoba ngehibur gue itu cuma buat mementingkan kepentingan dia sendiri.

Gue inget satu pengalaman gue waktu SD. Waktu itu gue ama temen-temen sepermainan gue tuh punya satu grup modern dance. Hari Sabtu itu ada ekskul nari, dan biasa nampil di situ (oke gue juga gak ngerti maksud gue apa, pokoknya gitu deh -_-). Ekskul itu jam terakhir pelajaran. Suatu Sabtu pagi mood gue ancur banget sampe berantem ama temen pasangan nari gue. Gue lupa karena apa, dan gue inget ada temen nari gue yang bilang ke gue, "Ta, baikkan dong ama si *nama orang*". Terus kalo gak salah gue jawab, "Emang kenapa sih?!". Eh dia bilang, "Masalahnya entar narinya gimana?!". Ahelah makin bete aja gue waktu itu! Ternyata pada ngebujuk gue cuma karena supaya narinya gak ancur! Bukan karena "niat baik" yang beneran. Tapi kalo gue inget-inget itu.... Sampe sekarang gua gak tau gue marah karena apa -___________________-.

Rasa-rasanya kalo temen-temen gue nemuin gue lagi mendadak diem sama murung tuh pasti lagi badmood. Lebih baik jauhin gue aja daripada kena marah atau bisa aja gue pukul tanpa meratiin cewek atau cowok. Apalagi yang malah becandain gue, mau mati lu? Gue juga gak ngerti sifat itu dateng darimana. Tapi kalo yang namanya PMS (Premenstrual Syndrome) tuh rasanya pasti deh gue bakal marah-marah gak jelas. Yang ini gue gak tau darimana datengnya juga. Tapi badmood ama galau tuh beda ya! Kalo galau mah beda lagi ceritanya.... *sigh* forget it.

Intinya, stay away from me if I get BADMOOD! This is me. =______________=

PANDAAAAAAAAAAAA!!

Panda. Yep! Pasti yang bakal dipikirin tuh hewan asal Cina pemakan bambu yang mirip dengan beruang cuma bedanya ini hitam putih. I love it so much >.<.  Gue suka banget ama nih hewan satu. Tapi itu gara-gara suami member Bigbang yang gue suka itu, Seungri ^^. Dia itu kalo punya sebutan "Panda" karena lingkaran hitam di matanya yang jadi amat mirip dengan panda beneran. Cuman bedanya dia ganteng, panda lucu.

                                                             Seungri. Look at his eyes!

                                                                      I see no difference.


Dulu sebenernya gue cinta mati ama hewan yang namanya pinguin! Gue kalo ngeliat tuh hewan satu bakal histeris kayak orang ayan kesurupan. Tapi semenjak pacaran suka ama Seungri gue jadi ikut-ikut suka panda. Tapi gak mengurangi rasa suka gue ama hewan lucu nan imut dari Kutub Selatan itu hohohoho~.


Beberapa minggu yang lalu gue dapet tugas wawancara dari guru Bahasa Indonesia. Diputuskan kalo itu tuh per kelompok, dan satu kelompok tuh 2 orang (satu meja). Sayangnya kelas gue ini jumlah anaknya ganjil otomatis emang ada 1 anak yang duduk sendiri. Dia akhirnya diizinkan untuk bergabung dengan 1 kelompok jadi kelompok tersebut menjadi 3 orang. Gue suka kasian ama anak itu, gue ngerti perasaannya. Setiap gue ngeliat anak itu, gue selalu nyadar, bahwa gue sedang bercermin. Guelah anak terpilih terbuang itu! (Gue gak sesedih ini sih -_-)


Gue dan kelompok-yang-rela-menampung-gue milih wawancara bokap temen gue yang punya pabrik boneka. Saat gue ke pabriknya... (jeng jeng...) ada boneka... (iyalah!) belom selesai! (oh, sorry) Ada boneka panda lagi dibikin! Gue histeris dan minta-minta ke temen gue supaya bisa beli tuh boneka. Setelah minta dan memohon dan berdoa, gue bisa juga dapetin tuh boneka. Asli gue seneng banget! Hahahaha~~

                                                                     This is what I've got.


Boneka pandanya tuh kalo dibediriin ± setengahnya tinggi badan gue (tinggi gue 158cm). Gede banget kalo dipeluk >.< (apa gue yang gak terlalu tinggi? -_-).

My collection~ ^^v

Lumayan juga ya koleksi gue? LOL! Itu belum semua, gantungan HP gue panda, ada gantungan, dll. OMFG only that kind of person (Seungri) can change me until 150˚! (Not 180˚ all, the 30˚ still my old soul)

                                                                       Such a cutie~~

Be Yourself ^^

"Jago banget sih dia?!". "Keren banget ya dia?". "Kapan gue bisa kayak gitu?". "She's so clever!". "He's so talented!". "OMG I hope I can be like her!". "He's so freaking brilliant!". Ya, itu macam-macam kalimat pujian untuk seseorang. Tapi menurut gue, orang yang mengucapkan kalimat-kalimat tersebut pasti bukan hanya mengagumi seseorang yang dipujinya. Pasti ada rasa iri. Gue bisa bilang gini karena pastinya gue pun pernah ngerasain. Jujur aja, kalau gue bilang gitu rasa iri nya lebih besar dibanding rasa kekaguman gue terhadap orang tersebut. Ya... kira-kira 60% banding 40% lah.

But, gue selalu lupa akan yang gue punya saat gue iri dengan orang lain. Gue lupa saat orang-orang yang gue puji pun pernah muji gue dalam hal yang berbeda. Feels like suddenly I got some amnesia. Saat gue pengen bisa jadi seseorang, banyak orang-orang lain yang ingin jadi gue. Gue rasa pastinya ini bukan berlaku buat gue seorang. Pasti orang-orang lain juga. dan semua orang pasti punya kelebihan.

Kelebihan yang gue punya itu... gue lumayan jago gambar ^^. Sering temen-temen banyak yang minta ajarin, termasuk adik gue sendiri. Tapi faktanya, meskipun gue ngajarin orang ngegambar, hasilnya gak akan sama kayak gue cause bakat itu kan gak bisa ditularin. Gue dapet bakat ini sih from my lovely dad^^. Gue juga minta ajarin apapun dari orang-orang kalau itu bukan bakat gue, gue juga gak akan bisa. 

Gue juga pernah sempet belajar main alat musik drum. Gue bisa. Tapi itu bukan minat sesungguhnya. So, itu gak bertahan lama dan malahh jadi sia-sia -_-. Ujung-ujungnya gua balik lagi ke dunia gambar gue. Sebenernya, gue juga suka iri kalau ngeliat orang yang gambarnya jago-jago banget. Tapi kalau gue ngerasa gini, gue manfaatin supaya gue ngelatih terus kemampuan gue supaya bisa nyamain atau malah melebihin orang tersebut. Bersaing sehat right?

                                       Salah satu gambar gue, yep gambar BIGBANG ^^.

Jadi intinya, semua orang punya bakat masing-masing. Kata-kata "Just be yourself" emang bener-bener betul! Dibandingkan ingin "berperan" jadi orang lain, mending jadi diri sendiri dan ngembangin bakat yang dipunya. Pasti hasilnya lebih bagus daripada "berperan" menjadi orang lain yang belum tentu itu sama dengan diri sendiri. ^^~

Everything

Just info, I'm one from many VIPs in this world. VIP is the name of BIGBANG fans. And yeah Bigbang is name of boyband from South Korea. Seungri (승리) is Bigbang's member that I really really really love. He's the youngest member. Bigbang have many songs. There's more than 100 songs, and I think that almost 150 songs. But there's only one song which match with Seungri. The title is EVERYTHING. This is the lyric:
(PS: because I'm a girl, just change all of "she", "girl", "her" on the lyric into "he", "boy" and "him")


EVERTHING


Everything... Ain't a thing without you here in my life 
(You sexy hottie, you got that body, you make things right)
Ain't a dream... 'cause the way you hold me hits deep inside 
(So sweet like honey, right on the mone, blowin' my mind)

Everyday as I wake I'm whole
You got me feelin' so fresh and good to go
My friends think that I'm crazy, yo
Well, I'm about to get crazy some more

Cause every little thing you do turns me on 
(You turn me on)
And everytime you speak you touch my soul 
(You touch my soul girl)
It's everybody's dream to be in love for oh so long 
(Just want your body on my body body)
Girl anything you need is in these open arms 
(These open arms girl)
We'll fly together free wherever you want 
(Wherever you want)
Cause you're my everything 
(My everything)
Every single thing 
(Every single thing)
Everything 
(Oh oh oh oh oh)


Let it rain 
(Pour down your love)
Wanna take you on a special joyride 
(You sexy hottie, you got that body, you make things right)
That's the way, in the mornin' afternoon and the night 
(So sweet like honey, right on the money, blowin' my mind)

Everyday as I wake I'm whole
You got me feelin' so fresh and good to go
My friends think that I'm crazy, yo
Well, I'm about to get crazy some more

Cause every little thing you do turns me on 
(You turn me on)
And everytime you speak you touch my soul 
(You touch my soul girl)
It's everybody's dream to be in love for oh so long 
(Just want your body on my body body)
Girl anything you need is in these open arms 
(These open arms girl)
We'll fly together free wherever you want 
(Wherever you want)
Cause you're my everything 
(My everything)
Every single thing 
(Every single thing)
Everything 
(Oh oh oh oh oh)


Yo yo yo, just me and my honey she's my one and only
Baby likes to do her thang
What you talkin' 'bout homie
If you didn't know me T-O-P got that bang
And it's bigger, see me when I shoot lyics pull the trigger
Many wanna rock this but they can't figure
What it's all about no doubt
Steady dedicated to my girl gotta give a shout

Yo, that's word, ya heard she's mine
Every little thing she do so fly
Specially when she rock the gucci
Lookin' mad juicy definitely one of a kind
That's right I'ma be by her side 
(Do or die) 
And I'ma keep it real tight 
(Really tight) 
As ong as I be the GD
She's gon' be my sweety every single day and night
For the rest of our lives

Baby girl just let your worries go free, oh
From here on out we cruisin' in luxury, yeah
We're gonna take it to the next century and forever
That's how we roll

Cause every little thing you do turns me on 
(You turn me on)
And everytime you speak you touch my soul 
(You touch my soul girl)
It's everybody's dream to be in love for oh so long 
(Just want your body on my body body)
Girl anything you need is in these open arms 
(These open arms girl)
We'll fly together free wherever you want 
(Wherever you want)
Cause you're my everything 
(My everything)
Every single thing 
(Every single thing)
Everything 
(Oh oh oh oh oh)



I love that song because the lyrics. But I just realized, that song not only the voice of my feeling to Seungri. But that's match for my feeling to "someone" too. Idk but.... I hope you can read this. Read my feeling to you.


PS: Oops!! this is my another English post (with  my failed grammar).